A Stream of Consciousness on ED

I want to scream.

Lodged in my lungs are spores of hate. I’d like to believe that if I can scream, loud enough, long enough, with enough force I can expel the spores.

I know this is not true. The hate is no spore, no visiting toxin.

No it is homegrown, native to my body.

It is in my bones, my muscles, my organs, and stitched across my skin.

I am a hateful thing.

The hate feels like fire incinerating me from the inside out. …


How our institutions are failing us

At the moment I am typing this my phone notifications are exploding with outrage from an email that students at my university — we’ll call it “CollegeU” for this article — received. It stated that in lieu of the five-day spring break we are accustomed to we would be receiving two wellness days over a month apart from each other in which the university “ will offer instruction-free days…to allow for rest…” and “instructors will be asked not to schedule exams, quizzes or assignment due dates on the days immediately following…”

From my text…


Today I am among the first people to have turned twenty, who have only existed since the turn of the millennia. Although those born in 97–99 likely have an almost identical experience to mine — if they will cling to being “90s babies” then I will cling to being a baby of the new millennia, a 2000s baby.

Life is weird in general. Life has been particularly weird these last *checks notes* SEVEN MONTHS. Somehow though I’ve been blessed enough to find beauty among chaos and despair. My baby sister and I have grown thick as thieves. My relationship with…


I can’t rest because I keep toying, sadistically, with the concept of heartbreak. I’m not just pondering the concept; I’m forcing myself to re-experience what the edges of it feel like. The hollowness in my chest. The inability to breathe. The weight in my stomach. The disassociation from limbs. The pressure of tears welling. The tightening of my throat. The utter illness. The nausea that wants to expel all the love you had but can’t get it out quick enough.

The sensations can’t fully wash over me because I’m not heartbroken. In fact, I’m the polar opposite. I’m deeply in…


Theories on Black Gen-Zers Attachment to 90’s Music

I. Intro

A few weeks ago, I was listening to one of my favorite podcasts, Switched on Pop. It’s hosted by musicologist Nate Sloan and songwriter Charlie Harding where they “pull back the curtain on how pop hits work magic on our ears and our culture.” …


Exploring How the Phenomenon of “TikTok Hits” Impacts Black Culture

With a pandemic corraling millions of Americans into their homes more and more people finally gave into the video social media app TikTok. In my own family of five, four of us have the app, and we walk around the house quoting videos and memes from it. TikTok memes have practically become my baby sister’s and I’s second language. Along with memes are songs from dance challenges that become such earworms that even my mom finds herself singing the 15-second snippets of songs by artists she’s never even heard of…


Discovering Who am I When I am Well

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When my therapist asked me “well what is a healthy lifestyle to you” I had a very nebulous answer. Now I am a Type A, high achiever, goal-oriented type of college student, so I know all the makings of a good goal, and specificity is key. My therapist challenged me to take the rest of the week and really dig into defining a healthy lifestyle, since a lack of specificity may have been the very thing impeding me in finally achieving this goal.

The first thing I did was try to unpack…


My review of the newest additions to my playlist

This weekend R&B fans were FED. A five-track EP from Summer Walker titled Life on Earth, new Kaytranda ft. Lucky Daye, and a new track by Snoh Alegra that’ll make you call your ex. Fans also got a feminine rap twist on Flo Milli’s track “Weak” which samples- you guessed it- Weak” by SWV. Finally, the much-awaited “XS” remix by Rina Sawayama ft. Bree Runway. Keep scrolling for my breakdown and review for each project below!

image via Interscope

After how much I LOVED Summer Walker’s previous projects, I was curious how this EP…


My perspective on the holiday in today’s climate

“What, to the American slave, is your Fourth of July? “I answer: a day that reveals to him, more than all other days in the year, the gross injustice and cruelty to which he is the constant victim” — Frederick Douglass

That is a snippet of some of the famous words delivered by Frederick Douglass a quarter-century after the founding fathers declared independence from Britain. He delivered this speech as Black people across the south languished in the bondage of slavery, no taste of the glorious freedom white Americans were celebrating. This…


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Aaliyah Allen-Coleman

Undergraduate student | just writing into the void | topics of interest: race, gender, music, and culture | Instagram: liyahh.allen

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